Have you ever found yourself in the pain of inadequacy? Bereft with the thought that you are just not good enough. That your best is utterly insufficient.
Has the source of these feeling come at the words of another individual in your life? A spouse? A Parent? A Coworker or even a boss?
I have, quite frequently of late, been wounded by such reflections of myself at the words and actions of another. The result was that I found my confidence and self-esteem diminishing and my ability to see a more balanced view of me nearly immobilized. As I found myself walking away from the pain and the hurt that are co-conspirators with unkindness, I felt God turning my mind to the reflection of a few night’s previous. To a moment were I was joyful and happy. A photo shoot.
A photo shoot that left me and the subject uplifted and hugging at the end of our session. My subject came in shy and hesitant but wanting so much to have good images of her taken. She wanted, even for a brief moment to reconnect with the power and beauty of her womanhood.
As I reflected on this remembrance, the words came to me, "Because I can." I wanted to understand what the Lord was showing me and the why. As I opened my spirit to understand, I had to release the growing spirit of resentment that had been forming in me. As I open myself, these were the words which flowed to me.
Because I have known pain, I can choose not to hurt another. Because I have been injured and torn down, I can choose to build another. Because I have, at times, allowed myself to become lost, I can be a guiding light to others.
Because I believe the world is filled with what we seek, I can seek and be part of the good. Because I can take photos, I can capture joy, pain, pride, love, hurt, singularity, individuality and the myriad of things that we are and that we feel. Because I can see these things in others, I can choose to be honorable of their trust and vulnerability. Because I am, I can choose. Because you are. Because you can. Because you matter. What will you choose?
Portrait of a woman with her head resting on her arms.